Monday, November 9, 2009

The Resonnace of Taste

I'm hearing about everything. What people hate, what they love, what makes no impact on them. Well, have you ever had an omelet with cream cheese and garlic filling...? It is amazing. I don't think I can ever eat another omelet again... My friend Sarah who was once a chef in a restaurant is now a teacher (long story). She spent time at a lake house with my wife, my son, her husband and me.

She calls her omelet " the house special" and it is to die for. The cream cheese with the eggs yolks and salt all grilled in a skillet will literally kill you. You will die with a smile on your face but you'll kick that bucket hard!

The health plan is also killing people. Political conservatives hate it. Liberals love it (I've been told because they have their heads up their asses and haven't grown up yet), impartials don't give a shit and the homeless just want your excess change.

I think I know why as a boy I didn't like politics nor did I talk about them. I don't understand them now, but I have plenty of people who say that they do and tell me all of the time what I should be thinking.

I don't think I want my parents to be pushed aside if the government tells me that they are not worth a possible life saving operation. I think that makes me a conservative... but I also don't think that people who trade money and lose peoples' money are honorable Americans either... so am I a liberal?

Who cares what anyone is anyway? Shouldn't we care about this country and how it is doing? Shouldn't we all want the best for the United States? I thought so. I think so.. yes we should.

I was told a few days ago that conservatives want to see people pull themselves up from their bootstraps and make it. Where liberals want to give hand outs to keep the status quot. I thought about this a bit. I pondered the weight of this statement. Yes, I guess there can be some truth to this...? But why then when I meet conservatives do I want to decapitate them when they speak. I may love the person, but then I hear their rhetoric and I have to swallow the vomit in my mouth.

On the other hand, liberals just seem to want to give people who seek better lives for themselves and their families the chance to do so. Liberals do become drippy gooey messes of self-righteousness and preachiness yet they don't give as much to charity I am told.

Hmmmm.... Taste....taste. It all seems bitter to me. I do not read enough because all media is tainted although I'm told by conservatives that FOX news (not channel 5 the other one) tells it the closest to reality as it is. Tee-hee! That's cute. Then I'm told by both conservatives and liberals why the other is incorrect and dangerous. But then there's the vomit in my mouth with the conservs make me feel, Hmmmmm - taste....hmmmmmm.

Maybe... maybe I feel more for the poor illegals, or the down on his or her luck people because that's who I am. I don't always make the right choices and I suffer due to them. Does that make me a bad person? I love to spend money on things that make me happy.... Yes I said THINGS. Things like a movie ticket, or comic book, CD or my all time favorite, a new DVD (it's my addiction of choice). Does that make me a bad person? I don't think so. No, no it doesn't.

I don't enjoy these "things" lately anymore as I am unemployed and my wife supports our family (my 6 month old so and I). See what I mean. I have a lot in common with the class of people that are not considered "go getters". If you don't make something of yourself, the conservs think you should... even if you can't. Just make yourself a success. I've noticed most conservs say that. Just make money.

The liberals, well, just want you to make a go at things that you can. If you can, if not, they'll cry for you.

As I was saying, I know what interests me, and what brings me joy. I think that is all that matters. Yes there should be enough health care for all people no matter the class level. Should the government dictate it, I'd say no, because the govt doesn't know my Mom and Dad. They are great people who raised me. And I am not ready to give them up if perhaps one day they need an operation that is $50k and the socialized health care says they aren't worth it, heads will roll. And I don't mean figuratively.

Taste - well some like hot dogs and pizza and some like sushi and chai tea. If it works for you, then that's a great thing. If I had the garlic and cream cheese omelet every day it just wouldn't be special when I did have it, now would it? I'd also be dead, so maybe a nice balance is in order.

I fear that this country may be headed for even darker times, before the sun rises again. That is bitter yes, but something doesn't seem to taste right.

But really who cares? As long as iphones are affordable it seems that many an American are o.k.

Have a great one!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Well Who Cares?

The Fall is here. No more sun tan lotion, no more long days with pink and purple sun sets. No more ice cream and bikinis. No more summer block busters that don't bust anything accept the audiences wallet. No more heat (thank God). No more obnoxious teenagers acting out because they think they have what it takes to be some body! No more of the experimental reality tv shows that suck, but just for the summer.

It's time to gather your text books, and grab that syllabus. Pat little Sarah or Simon on the head and say "have a good day at school". The Fall season of all the good programming begins soon, and the sun will set earlier and earlier; so early that some people leave in darkness only to return in it.

What does time teach us? How many of us really learn from the memories of our past? Why be afraid of new ideas when the old ones have not proven effective?

I don't know a lot about a lot, but I do know that we as a species are flawed, almost defected. Now those of you angered by my perspective, I mean it as a compliment. We are not at the peak of our evolution. We have not found the perfect balance that benefits our kind and the living things around us. Give us a break. More importantly give us a chance.

Most people didn't even think about the King of Pop's legacy until he unfortunately passed way too early.

Perfection does not exist because it is an abstract concept conceived by an imperfect, learning and developing being. You can't say which side is right and which wrong, because there is always a biased based upon the effect of those sides on a personal level.

Just let the president do his best, and watch him closely (like all elected officials should be). If he makes mistakes, bad ones, kick him out. But don't be frightened by a point of view that is not the same old dusty barkings of the same dog. Give the new dog a chance.

Yeah he's black, so what? And he has friends whom have admitted to being anti-American, so what? Who cares? I'm different from how I was in college. Maybe they are too? Do you think that the officials on the right are not connected to some kind of anti-American shadies? Of course they are! Accept they are in business with them too. The right does know how to make cash, that's for sure.

I've been warned about our president's decision making from good friends, a parent, a significant other, and many others.
I've never been politically minded. Basically because I've never seen a political discussion turn out well. Accept for maybe on the Daily Show, or on the Steve Colbert Report. But that's just rhetoric. I think.... wait a minute. "Think!" That's it. People need to think. Use your heads for God sake and work things out for yourselves!
If our current chief messes up badly, well then off with his head. But what is all the fuss about?
No one was terrified when our last leader (of the FREE world) told us we would have to pay more for nothing, and said there were bombs and there weren't. Ooops was all anyone would offer as an answer.

It's a black guy who is half white. There, wipe your brow. And for all the people of color who did vote JUST because he's black, well, you're just dummies. Like dumb like the pigs who are led to slaughter. Just like all the right-wings who want to see our president fail just to rub it in the noses of the lefts. Like dumb-fat pigs, Mr. Limbaugh.

We don't want to think anymore as a nation. We want to be led. Like sheep! So if all doesn't end in 2012, and we are still forging ahead toward a brighter future, then I'll put on my sun glasses and grab a shovel. Because a pile a shiny shit is still just a pile of shit.

Who thinks that any one president will change everything? Ding-dong you're wrong!

And really who cares?

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Do What You Love

There is a simple guiding force in the universe many agree which draws us to our "Destiny". That force, or energy, or God is what acts as a magnet. Some believe it's "Him" upstairs, others concur it is the energy either being attracted or repelled by the flowing beams of goodness (energy) that run through us like a river of electricity.
I've experienced that doing something I hate makes for great stories and amazing venting monologues, but isn't very enthralling for the rest of the world. Who cares, it's my party and I'll cry if I want to.
My spirit was crushed today.
I'll play my violin for you: I am taking 6 full time Masters courses and am smack in the middle of moving, with a pregnant wife, and was unemployed until I was asked to be a substitute teacher (just for two weeks) for my landlord's middle school. A substitute is pretty much a warm body (preferably breathing) to stand in front of a class to make sure the students are alive for the next class. In a middle school, you are meat for the beast, because many of these kids don't respect or give a shit about their regular teachers. So a "sub" is worth less than the filth on their brand new sneakers, that they cannot afford but so many have.
There is a dark feeling inside me that wants to be away from these little monsters. Most look unloved, and uncared for, and it's sad. But I am in a different position now, as soon I'll be a Dad, come April 29th '09. I am proud, excited, thrilled and honored, and now biased. I used to feel for these kids left behind, because they will be. Maybe not in every class room, but the world will forget about them. It's just nature.

My priority is my son and my wife.

If I was not born into the family I had been, way back in 1972, I would be one of these sad and lonely children.
But I still find myself wanting to be away from them. The angry middle school shadows of the future.
I am not enjoying this, can't you tell?

I was not like this when I was a student as a child. I was respectful, and quiet. I did my work and I went home.
I also did/ do not understand the loud, dumb, acting out... I have no patience for it, nor am I sympathetic. They are animals...they were when I was a kid and they still are. The public school, loud, smelly, obnoxious, damaged babies that parents messed up.

I am damaged too in my own way. But at least I was/ am quiet.

Yesterday, I asked my wife and she said she loves going to work everyday. She loves it. My colleague said she too loves her job. They both collectively have over 15 years experience teaching. I'm glad they love it. Somebody has to.

I am just having very negative thoughts and feelings and I can't always "leave it home" I'm either to weak, or too sensitive. That is who I am. So what? Who Cares?

The day seemed to drag on, and on and on. As though there was no end. The smiling, cackling, devious, brats just talked and talked and talked. I had to go to places in my mind where I found comfort and security, because yes, I wanted to kill them.

I went to lunch with my colleague; we went to get Mexican food at a nice place around the corner from the school.
Exhausted and defeated, and ready to go home (I'm a wimp and I don't care), I ordered my burrito lunch special and went to sit down at the table where my colleague chose for us to sit.

I sat down, sipped my diet coke, and saw a familiar face staring back at me from the printed table cloth.

It was a Mexican poster of Spiderman, reaching right toward me. Bright red and blue! It was like seeing an old friend...
I did look around the entire eatery. Just in case I was reaching. Not a single superhero did I see anywhere other than directly in front of me.

Is it a sign? I hope so. And I'll take it. Whatever it means.

You only have one life to live....

...so please....

.......Do what you love...

the world will be a better place for it.

have a great sunny Spring....
w/ love-
G.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Injection of Purity

O.k. well, it's been a while since I've opened my mouth, or my key board, and it's time. I'm stealing a moment out of my busy day to spew shit. I don't care about the politically correct crap anymore....I'm using curse words to emphasize my unhappiness. I'm not going to be vulgar, but I am not going to worry if I am perceived as a low brow. Heheh.
We have the inauguration of Obama. It's done, let's move on. No one expects him to make things perfect, because none of us have direct experience with working in government, however just try to get something organized at your job. I was a teacher for 5 years and just to choose a place to have the end of year party was like rearranging the socioeconomic foundations of Bulgaria. Who f-ing cares? Just eat your meatballs and chicken franchese and shut your mouths. (love you all)
There is no one way to make things better in this country and Bush did what he could, ebedeeebedee (Porky Pig stuttering) - which was nothing really. Clinton got a hummer and messed up the mortgages because the loan companies were greedy mother-f-ers that didn't care about the outcome. Nice job Bill.
It's all just greed. That's the bottom line people. It's not enough in this country to make millions of dollars, but we need to make more and more and more. Yeah , the government rapes us openly, but we're free. Right? Go do something free today- baaaaaaaaaaaa- sheep. That's it. I am too. I love it. Just give me my wife & son, family & friends, shelter, movies and time to draw and I am the richest man on earth. Well, that is if my pregnant wife keeps working. (Love you honey, and thank you).
America is headed toward being a third world country because of the desire to have more than we need. I'm not saying that people that work hard shouldn't have cool stuff to take the edge off, but look at where we are. In a pile of poop and we've been given a knife, fork and napkin and freedom.
We pay for everything is this country, so don't think for a second that you're free. I'm not a liberal, or a democrat, or a republican, or progressive - I'm a human being who lives here, and it's getting to me. No one should be free if we have to bail out the money hungry demons that went after the bottom line so ferociously, that they need "our" help. Are you mother-f-ing-kidding me?
If Clinton messed up, o.k. he did...Bush could've changed it. If Obama can't fix it (it's going to take decades people....not a year or three) then he can step aside too. Who messed up before Clinton - more Bush. I never thought I'd say this, but I'm sick of Bush. And Clinton wasn't man enough to resist an ugly little plump intern. Pathetic - even if he was just a truck driver.
Who was before Old Bush..? We can go back as far as we want... it's all still chicken soup no matter how you spice it. It'll basically tastes the same.
The human condition is just dumb. We're animals that think they are superior because we can "make choices" and we have organized religion. Well, when that garbage takes over your life and it makes you hate people and hurt people, it's trash, throw it out. I don't care what the organized thing is...if it evolves to where your fellow human is being hurt by it, IT IS WORTH NOTHING.
Don't give me that civilization is created because of survival needs and the evolving "higher" primate awareness of it's self. Mooooo-shit! It's fodder. And you know it.
If you've read this far, then you really are something special, because I would have stopped after the first sentence, but that's just because I have no attention span, and I am too dumb to understand politics. I may have read further because I wanted to see what else was going to be said. So for the interested free human reading this far.....here you go.
That Angelina look alike c-word who has the fourteen kids: Take her by the legs, and take the legs of the doctor who gave her the hormones and smash their heads together. What ever bloody goop that is left on the floor is still higher in intelligence than she is or the doctor. She is a criminal, and so is he. Yeah yeah - you're feeling bad for her? Don't. She is sick and she is stealing from the hard working civilians in this country. She is an abomination, and must be stopped. She is like a mini-Binladen! Take a look at her on youtube. She has had injections in her ugly lips and her ugly nose was shrunken to look like an ugly Angelina Jolie. Her mother is now burdened with this God Damned tragedy. I'm having a kid this year - the only good thing in my life next to my wife and my family (both sides). I've been laid off and my wife works while she is pregnant. I am a canyon full of anxiety because I want to make sure my son has a decent life. This mother (f---er) of fourteen is a child abusing cretin. She is what is wrong with this country (among other things). They aren't pets, they aren't toys - they are human beings who are going to grow up believing that this is an acceptable and appropriate behavior and life culture. It is not. Period. Oh and for the record I HATE the Duggans (a family with 18 kids and counting - on cable) and I'm not too thrilled with John and Kate plus eight (who had beautiful twin girls and took hormones and had six-tuplets - I spelled it purposely that way so relax). John and Kate are very Christian too - well if you couldn't get pregnant maybe God didn't want you to you assholes!
Yeah - that's normal. That's good for an over populated earth. No worries, I'm sure there'll be another war coming soon and the population will thin out again. Or a disease will be tested by being released into the general population to see it's effects. Yay!
If you have no children and want some, then yes do what you have to, but when you have children, and they are not cared for sufficiently, you strip society. I saw a woman on Super Nanny who had ten kids and it was her dream to have twleve. The ten she had were in turmoil, hence being on Super Nanny, or is it Nanny 911, the show with the British chick with the glasses. It's on channel - 7.
The reason big families existed decades ago (I mean long ago, not in the 80's knuckle head) was because child labor was needed to keep the family going, and also because out of ten kids a third usually DIED. So you had to push out puppies to beat the death curve.
Oh and I don't think they're cute either. They're people....who you think will grow up feeling special because tv cameras are in their faces, and they're not (special that is).
O.k. then I saw: On the cover of a New York news paper it said A-hole. A-rod who is Alex Rodriguez admitted or it was found that he took steroids to perform better at his job. Um, who f-ing gives a shit!? Um, don't they sell Viagra, Cealis and Levitra so we can perform in the bedroom? And most of us don't get paid for that. Doesn't coffee affect how we produce in a lame job in front of a computer? And we aren't being filmed or doing our expected job in front of tens of thousands of people (at the stadium and on tv), usually millions?
What about sugar? We consume this stuff because o.k., yeah it tastes good, but we know that is makes us sharper, or helps us with our creativity. Even if it's "organic" (pussy's - I do it too, relax -heehee).
We even go in the opposite direction when we are at a party, we (not everyone of course captain defensive - generally speaking) use alcohol to relax us in social situations, and to be more relaxed after a long day of life?
So put every one of those baseball players into that hall of fame, or I'll bite your knee caps so bad, you'll weep like a hungry infant. Beause those guys were doing their job, and making gobs of cash doing it. There is no honor in a capitalist society. And let Pete Rose in. He gambled on baseball. Against his team, o.k. Who cares? He was making money and that's they name of the game. And it's baseball. If your kid, or any kid becomes a drop out, or criminal because Pete Rose gambled, or A-rod took performance enhancing drugs, it just means you failed as a parent. That's all. IT's you're kid, it's your responsibility. That's it. No debate, no discussion. (Think about it). Oh yeah and leave Roger Clemens alone too.. he was just doing his job, and I HATE Clemens. Like if his plane went down, I would laugh. Yes, evil comes in all shapes and sizes and the Emperor (from Star Wars) was right, it feels good. >:)
Anything else. Oh yeah - Madonna you're a grandma. Stop it! You vein-y armed, she-male. You are not cool. You are an ugly witch who was never a good role model for young girls. She shook her tits and ass to get ahead in the world. Is that what you want your daughter to imitate? For the flip-side of that I hate Mylee Syrus too, or whatever her name is? She is terrifying, with big Muppet eyes. She has a flat face like an orangutan. But BIG EYES like one of those digitally manipulated faces for magazine ads, or in a tv commercial.
Angelina Jolie is not a role model either. What is the message she's projecting? Be gorgeous (if you think she is, I'm more of a Salma Hayek guy). Then be famous. Then be rich out' the ass! Then kiss your brother on the lips at the Oscars, and then, marry an old guy who made one good movie (Sling Blade). Then make a good looking idiot LEAVE HIS WIFE to marry you. Then adopt brown kids from different parts of the world where they have no money. You are a weirdo Angelina and I'm glad I'm having a boy you freaky big lipped gargoyle!
Michael Jackson has white kids, maybe that's the balance. Who knows, who cares?
I guess I do because I'm tired of it. I should be doing something productive, and maybe I am. We'll see.
I love exclaiming "you are the ball lickers..." from the film Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back. And yes, you are the ball lickers.. haha. I'm just the asshole inches away from the licking. Ugh! So, don't bring me the self righteous nose lifting and don't give me the street talk. This is the way it is, from one person's perspective.
Inject yourself A-rod. Complain if you don't like Obama. Do IT! Hold tightly onto your jobs, how ever long you'll have it, who knows, and who cares? Just don't try to inject purity into the world of a species who still hasn't reached the next level of evolution yet.
"Im a humanist..." Al Pacino as Satan in The Devil's Advocate